well i really should have left
my brain just refuses to accept how low i am on your hierarchy of concerns
you use and take and ignore and fester in self-loathing
and I'd like to be better than that
thank you for showing me the wrong way
so that i might find a path more suited to the life I'd like to build
and the final emblem of how wrong my choice to stay was:
a broken masculinity
in a way that would be better left in nightmares